Plastic Surgery Proved me right and now I'm having mixed emotions

So to start, this really is more of a vent session because I haven't fully sorted through my feelings yet. So I apologize for the length of my post in advance.

I was the ugly sibling and I knew it from an early age. I have always been very observant and quickly realized the difference in how people interacted with me compared to my sibling.... and I hated it.

As I got older, I became admittedly somewhat obsessed with fixing the problem. I got decent at concealing my flaws for the most part but I wanted a permanent fix.

As soon as I turned 18 I started saving up for a rhinoplasty because I knew this was my biggest flaw. I worked 2 and 3 jobs to save up and I got the surgery at 20. It made a massive and immediate difference in my self esteem. My family made me feel like it was a ridiculous waste of money and would comment about how I "never needed it", but I knew it was BS.

The surgery didn't solve all my life problems but it did make me less obsessed. It's like my face finally looked like how I saw it in my own mind. Looking into mirrors went from being crippling to manageable almost overnight.

I knew I didn't look amazing but I atleast didn't feel horribly ugly. I noticed my next problem feature shortly after the surgery, but I kept it to myself to avoid being called crazy again. I didn't obsessed over it either so it was more like an annoyance to me. As the years passed it became more and more annoying though, and after my spouse cheated on me, I admit I somewhat spiraled into ruminating about it as maybe a distraction to cope with my life?

I now had a better income and more time available at my disposal so I recently decided to try out different things to improve my appearance that were less invasive at first like facials, fillers and botox but I knew in my heart what I needed next was surgery. I finally just took the leap and got philturm reduction surgery AKA a lip lift.

It's been less than a month so swelling is coming and going. However in just the past few days I've had MULTIPLE people stop me, or go out of their way to tell me how beautiful I am. I've caught people just staring at me sometimes.

And you know what... it pisses me off! Lol I don't know if I'm more mad that I was right? Or for being gaslit for so many years by the people I cared about and trusted? Or maybe it's even just recognizing how vain and terrible humanity really is because nothing else about me has changed other than my face!

I guess I'm just sorting through a variety of emotions.

I couldn't leave my house without makeup for many years of my life because if I did people acted like they saw a zombie come to life or something. This last week I went to target and didn't even comb my hair fully, frumpy clothes on and no makeup because it's a pain in the ass to put on with my healing surgery scar. Within mere minutes of entering the store, I was treated to way warmer greetings and interactions from both men AND women. And as I left, a man driving by, slowed down to tell me "how beautiful" I was and that he hoped I would cheer up since I looked sad. I wasn't sad... I was pisssd off!

Again this really is just a rant. Im not sure what I'll get out of posting this but if there's anyone else whose had a similar experience maybe? I'd love to hear from you. ‐‐‐--‐-------‐-‐---------‐-‐ TLDR- I was gaslit into feeling like PS was unnecessary and now that I've had it, people treat me better and it makes me angry.