Financially struggling BF and Comfortable GF
hello, so ako ( 27 F ) ug akong bf ( 29 M ) have been together for 3 years.
wala jud ilad — sa 3 years namo, wala jud koy "red flag" na makita. kung mag away man gani mi, ginagmay rapod na butang and ma fix dayon kay both mature naman sad mi. he's everything to me, he has checked every single box na gipangita nako sa laki,
except for one thing — financial stability.
for context, i'm in law school pa, in other words; wala koy sweldo. but my family is comfortable jud. wala ko kaagi ug kalisod sa kinabuhi in terms of finances. i come from a "generational wealthy" family ( cringe ass term but no other way to put it )
he, on the other hand, is working as a manager sa BPO.
he's the eldest out of 4 children, and kabalo namo sa typical filipino eldest child role; expected na mutabang dayon once maka trabaho. iyang mama is ga work as CI + father is jobless d/t leg injury, naa pa sha 3 siblings ga skwela and he's expected to enroll them na.
i know he's still trying to build a career, i can really see the hard work and ambition in life.
but nagka lisod jud siya sa kwarta. and i have my own money din naman pero allowance ra sakong brothers abroad + father's money. he has always denied me trying to help him financially, pero AKO man sad nag insist kay maluoy jud ko.. and NEVER nako na feel nga gi-abuse ko ani na aspect or gi gamit sa kwarta.
so, unsa man jud ako gipa hungaw?
well.. nabug'atan na sad ko sa iyang problema. he does not ask for help in terms of finances, pero maluoy man sad ta. at the same time, nakahilak ko ba. kay gi kapoy na sad kog tabang financially, given na ga skwela pako and wala koy laing source of income.
wala man ko balak makig buwag niya over this,
but at the same time,
ga wonder jud ko if valid ba ako na feel na bug'at to be with him, given his problems in life.. it has always been like this since we got together 3 years ago, and it has Not gotten any better. will it be like this forever, kaha? na halos ako mag gastos sa tanan, not because he doesn't want to, but because he literally Cannot d/t financial problems w family.
if bug'at nako, kabalo ko MAS bug'at sa iyaha. :(
na trigger lang siguro ko sa comment sakong dad kung unsa kaha daw amo future if ingani lang daw na usahay sa date, ako mag gasto sa tanan. na ako daw mahimo provider. di man ko ganahan mangwenta noh kay i did everything out of Love jud.. but murag 80% of our dates and trips, ako jud mag gasto. mu bawi man siya sa acts of services hinuon. pero idk.. bug'atan na jud ko. :'( nag joke pajud akong kuya na basin Sugar mommy rajud daw ko niya.
dont even know what i expect from posting this. gapahungaw lang siguro. if u made it this far, salamat sa pagpaminaw (or basa lol).
Edit: ( para dili ma misinterpret ang date2 gasto )
- my feelings mostly lie on providing help sa finances sa tuition sa iyang siblings and remaining utang sa iya papa. it's not my responsibility at all. Never sad ko niya gi pugos, or gi-guilt trip or whatsoever. Ako lang gyud ang mu pugos kay maluoy ko. But naa jud ghapon guilt to spend money on things na i should not be dealing with. I would not feel "burdened" if akoa ni own money, but dili raba... for sure, if makahibaw ako family, mu react violently jud sila. my dad has started to make comments too — which i find concerning kay sa 3 years namo, karon rajod akong dad nag comment ug ingani. will talk to him if maka kita kog way ma-insert sa convo namo.