Is this God urging me to help others?

I think I’m getting sick and that I’ve been sick for the last few months because I have this persistent drive to help others by spending almost all my money on them.I went to the grocery store and spent close to 100 dollars on low income kids.I am someone that lives in poverty myself.What I did today and have been doing other the last couple of months I can’t afford to do without having nothing myself.

I love helping others but I don’t want to go hungry.But it’s like I’ll be ready to buy my groceries, get what I need and then put it back because I’m afraid of others who wouldn’t have anything.But then I look around my house and all I have is rice and canned veggies/beans.I don’t want to stop helping people and I also want to make sure that I have food.I can go without most things.