I want my crush to like me
Basically what I've already been doing is making sure my hair looks nice, wear a good outfit, I smell good, and I put lip gloss on. That's not the problem.
The problem is that I see some of the girls he talks to, and they don't really dress feminine. I remember once I dressed really feminine which isn't my usual style, all pink with a skirt, and he didn't even look at me that day. We usually talk to each other during class and that day he said absolutely nothing.
So I began to think he likes tomboys or something, cause another day I was wearing a regular outfit and then he wanted to speak to me. Idk. I even switched the side my part was on so he was able to see my face better.
Then he has this friend who's a girl that I see hanging out with him all the time. In lunch, in the gym, sometimes between classes. I don't think he would date her though, because she used to date his best friend, and I think she's going with her ex to the dance on Valentine's Day.
He also has this other friend who's a girl, but she looks like a 6-7th grader. I think there's nothing to worry about there, but you never know. We're in 8th grade and I never see that girl other than the beginning of the day, so she probably isn't in the same grade.
I can't even tell what he likes. He once asked me what I thought I would get on a test and I jokingly said a negative number and he turned away so fast I thought he was thinking I'm stupid. And he's really smart so I thought he likes smart girls, but when I stopped focusing on our class when we talked, it was a more productive conversation.
Also race is always a thought for me because some people don't like specific races, and my crush is white. Nothing about him says racist, and I wouldn't know his type because he doesn't really date, but I would prefer to know if he's okay with that. I know it's not everyone's preference.
But I also keep thinking that if I confess, he'll say no, not because of me, but because of him. I'm worried he'll think he's too weird to have a girlfriend and say no for that reason. Or he would reject me because what if he has a crush on the girl he hangs out with?
And then this other girl is really good at art, and he's good at art. They have multiple classes together so I thought they'd be closer since they would see each other all the time.
What if he's already going to the dance with a friend? What if he's not going to the dance at all? I want him to go so he can see me wearing my sparkly dress with my mascara done, because I probably wouldn't even be wearing a dress if I didn't think he was coming. I would prefer to wear a shirt and pants, especially at school, because the dress is above my knees.
Anyway this was a big yap sesh about nothing. I'll probably figure it out, he's a nice guy.