i think ill do it tonight

Pagod na pagod na ako mabuhay.

Ang dami kong problema na ako naman gumawa. Di ko na alam saan magsisimula. Di ko alam paano babangon.

Ayoko iwanan ang asawa(33M) ko dahil napaka swerte ko sa kanya, pero nahihila ko na sya pababa.

Mas deserve nya ng better na tao. Hindi tulad ko.

PS: Hindi ako nag che-cheat. More on life problems and bad investment nagawa ko.

Ayoko na. Kung mapunta man ako sa impyerno deserve ko.

Lord. Have. Mercy.

Edit : Thank you for reaching out. Madami pa rin palang mababait na tao sa mundo. If I didn't do another edit. It means I did it. Pray for my soul. But the means how I go .. alam ko na saan ako mapupunta.

Edit 2 : Thank you for your responses, and DMs. I appreciate all of it. I'm still contemplating if I'm gonna do it. Madami ako realizations sa mga nababasa ko at DMs. There's this one who take extra effort to voice message me on Telegram to help me and give advices. I'm not gonna lie. I feel better but still wanna be gone. I hope I get past this. I pray na tulungan ako ni Lord to ease my mind.

Edit 3 : Hey everyone, 98% of you have shared nothing but support and reasons why I shouldn’t go through with it. I just want to say thank you. I’m sorry I can’t reply to each of you individually, but please know that your words mean a lot.

The thoughts don’t just disappear, but you’ve given me a reason to pause and reconsider—to choose life. I truly appreciate all your kind messages and comments.

I wish you all a steady and fulfilling life, free from the kind of struggles that make you question your existence. Wishing you peace and strength. Godspeed. I'm decided. Goodbye, cruel world.