almost finished w o’s, questioning my whole future

hi! all the olvl papers are almost over, and i have sooo many questions abt what to do in the future. after every paper i do, my goal to get into a jc strays further and further away from me. i am pretty adamant in getting into a jc and am very hesitant to go to poly bcos of how uncertain i am w what course to take.

i took triple science for the sake of getting into a jc, and wld feel heavily disappointed in myself if i didn’t get into a jc.

for context, my l1r5 is horrendous- a grade of 30, which can be mainly blamed on my bio and physics as i had not studied both those subjects before prelims, and cld not care any less abt failing those subjects during prelims. it is embarrassing to tell people i want to go to jc with such a bad prelim score.

i am terrified of what results i will get on results day, and whether i will be able to get into a jc. to be able to calm me down until then, it would be nice for some people to answer some uncertainties i have been thinking about since olvls started:

1) is it possible to make a huge, drastic change from prelim grade to olvl grade? 2) what is millenia institute? is it just like a jc but using l1r4 instead of l1r5? 3)will my mcqs for science help make a big change in my overall grade for each science?

if anyone has gone through a similar experience with me, please feel free to share! i really want to not feel so alone during this period of time and at least have some faith in my olvls results 🥲 thanks!