I’m scared that I might be a bad person.

So for context, I am 13F. I have a traumatic past, none of it being sexual, but mainly emotional abuse and parent issues. Some other things I won’t get into.

I have turned to age/pet regression to cope as I feel that works very well for me for the most part. It is strictly SFW.

My only issue is I have intrusive thoughts and teenage hormones. Along with many random kinks. I feel like a fucking pedophile even though I’m not even an adult nor do I think sexually about kids but I still feel like a child predator whenever I regress and it’s now causing me to have suicidal thoughts as I’d rather die than have to deal with the thoughts of this.

Also I would never act on these things. I would never cause harm to a child, more is it rather sexualizing myself?

I’ve looked into this a little and I heard this can be a common symptom of OCD but idk if that can be diagnosed at an age like this

I just need some reassurance and non-judgement here, along with some advice.

I’m also sorry if this doesn’t make the most sense, I am writing this at 6 am after having an existential crisis about this shit.

EDIT: I was snapped out of this by a friend. I might just have OCD lolz. Uhhh, yeah. Thanks for everyone’s support! Also I won’t be accepting anymore dm requests.