Am I crazy? - A bi female

I can relate to both genders in ways but really understand neither.

I have a masculine mentality with feminine emotions.

I identify as female but fit in with men.

I have complex relationship problems because of natural female tendencies that I don't share.

I dress like a female but not really feminine

It's subtle as a bi, so subtle that it's often hard to trace, which is why I think it's not talked about or understood.

I'm wondering if I'm the only one, especially among women, who wonders why they feel different. We understand that some gay men or women may strongly identify with the other gender and take pride in that identity. But how come when a bi female asks about how their sexuality may affect them, it's so unknown? Is it because they seem to fit in with both genders?

I've been trying to find answers for years, subconsciously since childhood. This is my bi experience, and I know not everyone is the same, but I'm wondering if there is anyone who feels similar. I mean no disrespect if this isn't worded in ways that are socially correct any longer. I have to push and question these norms to even begin to understand. Yes, I know that feminine or masculine is not all one or the other.

I'm not trying to exclude men in the conversation either. If you identify with this id love to know too. I just suspect among men it is much easier for them to want to adpot to one or the other because it is likely very difficult to be an open bi man because there are prejudices that I feel bi men may have to deal with more frequently...but this is just my thinking I don't know.