Loss and Alcohol

With my wife's passing recently I have been contemplating alcohol. I have never been a big fan of drinking when I am sad. I've always enjoyed a beverage with family or friends to celebrate or over a good meal. I have on occasion had way too much to drink.

I have decided to forgo alcohol for some unknown period. I don't want to try and self medicate. I want to feel my feelings. I don't want to go to a dark place.

One of my adult children helped me throw out, give away, or put away everything. It just seems the right for me right now. I am not sure for how long, days, weeks, months, forever...